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I Want to Feel Comfortable Going to the Clinic Again

Because of the COVID-19 pandemic, I’ve never met my current pulmonary care provider in person, and I keep putting off my face-to-face appointment. I moved from Alabama to Arkansas for graduate school in the summer of 2020. It was the first time I lived outside my home state. I’d…

When Life Forces You to Pause, It’s Best Not to Argue

If I’m being completely honest — and when I started this column, that was one of my initial promises and intentions — I’ve been struggling lately. But complete honesty doesn’t automatically equal complete transparency, and grief is an emotion so wholly personal and raw I still don’t feel…

Finding Your Identity in Matters of Life and Death

I’m thankful to be alive. I was supposed to leave this world before I was 10 years old. At least, that’s what the data suggested when I was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis (CF) back in 1997. Much has changed since then. I like to think my own stubbornness, my…

Let’s Maintain Hope, Even When History Repeats Itself

I recently watched the 2021 remake of “West Side Story.” It was my first viewing of the musical, a surprising twist if you’ve read my columns. In short, I’m obsessed with musical theater and its parallels with the cystic fibrosis (CF) community. “It’s like ‘Newsies,'” I said as…

How I’m Healing From PTSD Caused by Medical Trauma

I used to think my medical trauma was normal. Doesn’t everyone with chronic illness go through traumatic experiences and not talk about them? When therapists helped me understand that I don’t need to have fought in a war to have post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), my perspective changed. It turns out…