Help: I Am an Anti-Germaphobe Who’s Becoming a Germaphobe
I have never been a “germaphobe”, despite our predisposition for infections and sickness. I always thought that stressing about what we can’t control only causes more stress. Sometimes I’m even a little negligent in caring because I don’t want to be ‘that person’ who’s always stressed about germs and her health, when the world spins on without me.
I have two kids (if you didn’t know, kids be disgusting), a husband who works in the school system, and I teach dance most nights. Still, with all the flu and strep that’s going around my area right now, I can’t help but feel super vulnerable and nervous about catching something on top of my many somethings… especially because I’m on IVs and still getting “back on my feet” (metaphorically speaking).
This weekend I return to my job(s)- working very long dance hours, surrounded by large groups of people, concluding with a special black-tie gala for my dance company. Basically: so so so many humans.
I normally wouldn’t be nervous, but this time… I am. And I’m sort of embarrassed about that, because it’s so against my “laid back” attempts at personality and wellness.
Do you ever find that your reactions change over time? Or that you become anxious about things you wouldn’t have in the past?
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