“I Wanna Be Sedated” (Spinal Taps)
I took yesterday off because I had another CT myelogram.
This will be my eighth “spinal entry” in a year and a half. I had a spinal CT, then a blood patch, then two more spinal CTs, then two steroid shots and nerve blocks, and then another. So this, in one way or another, was the seventh time in a short chunk of time that I’ve had to hold very still (with zero sedatives, etc) while someone goes into my spinal region with a big needle.
And it gets harder instead of easier. At least I think so. Now I’m aware of it and my brain goes, “But why?! Why are you holding still? Can’t you feel how shaky you are? Uh oh, what if your muscles jerk while they’re going in? Why are you covered in sweat?!”
I am supposed to hold still for 24 to 48 hours after (stay mostly laying down) since I have a history of spinal fluid leaks that need to be fixed via blood patch, but today I have dance to teach and go to CF clinic, so I’m going to do the best that I can until the last second.
Have you ever had a procedure that you wish was gently sedated?
I honestly think we should get a quick Ativan before our eighth spinal tap, you know? I don’t take anxiety meds at home so… It was just my stressed-out brain and me, trying to keep my shaking muscles calm.
What about you? What is on your list of “Why am I not sedated?!” adventures? [Please cue The Ramones]
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