In one word? EXHAUSTED.
As you mentioned in your reply to my post, it seems these conversations are happening so frequently. Every single day, whether in person or online, I find myself defending or explaining things I never thought I would have to.
When this all started, I had people reaching out to me saying things like, “I know that aspects of this aren’t new to you. I’m sorry you’ve been experiencing these things for so long, they’re really difficult.” There was so much empathy and I felt more understood than ever before. But before too long, those same people were saying things like, “These circumstances are unlivable. Let the vulnerable isolate, while we get back to normal.” (Well, they’ve been saying a lot of other, flat out unkind things as well. I’m trying to keep it nice here.)
I’ve wondered, what happened to that empathy? Why am I being told that my lived experiences aren’t valid? It’s been such an emotional roller coaster. Exhausting truly is the word that sums it up best for me.