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“Rose Bud Thorn”: How Was Your Weekend?
My husband is a teacher (well, behavioral counselor) and he likes to ask his students what is there “rose, bud and thorn” that day. This means “What is the beautiful part of your day… the hopeful part of your day… and the difficult part of your day”… and I really love this concept.
What was the Rose, Bud and Thorn of your weekend?
What about your week ahead?
I feel like my Thorn is overtaking my weekend and week, for sure, as I ended up re-injuring my back in some strange way earlier last week. I have since rested, iced, taken all the meds and done all the things, and still no major improvement. As soon as I move, I’m miserable.
Considering how OVER THE MOON grateful I was to be improving since surgery (“I can take baths now! I can wash my hair bending backwards! I can sit in a car and not want to cry!”), this is a somatic slap in the face in a lot of ways. I was doing “everything right” and still somehow hurt a completely new part of my spine by simply stretching… ???
Although we are awaiting what we should do (waiting for the phone calls, appointments and drawn-out systems of What Ifs, made worse by the approaching US holiday), I’m having a hard time seeing the Rose or Bud at all. I’m feeling broken, emotionally and in terms of pain and just… tired.
It’s crazy how something that isn’t life threatening (like a potentially new slipped disc in a still-painful back) stresses me out this much. I feel selfish and silly when peers of ours are facing down lung transplants and more. Because it leaves me landlocked- on top of an already isolating pandemic- I struggle mentally in so many ways. Additionally, all my neb progress and cough-clearance routines feel tossed out the window (due to pain at sitting/heaving/etc), or at least less effective.
So… well, that is my horrid complaint (apologies!), but before I go and gleefully see your Rose Bud Thorns (hopefully more chipper than mine), I have to say that my Rose is definitely having a lot more time at home this holiday season (I’ve normally been traveling and stressed with dance in years past) and my Bud is the hope that this hump won’t be an eight-month standstill like last time and will actually heal and resolve.
I realize these are all very self involved Rose-Bud-Thorns… but humor me? Sometimes it’s nice to be open without caveat (for example, the real Rose is that my girls are safe and well), or without justifying our very-real-feelings away so fast.
What about you? What is impacting YOU, personally, right now in life?
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