I have been in a huge rut for quite a while due to my health. I think people often have the perception that I’m always positive and happy. It’s probably because I often take a step back or hide when I’m not feeling so happy.
Social media gives us these strange glimpses into peoples’ lives. It’s like the ultimate Mad Lib: We provide an outline of our lives with key words missing and leave it for other people to fill in. The truth is, I haven’t been as cheerful or motivated as I once was. Life has been difficult, and progression with cystic fibrosis is a hard pill to swallow (pun intended).
We tend to look up to those who seem like they are always smiling and have their lives together. However, it’s important to take a step back and acknowledge that no one can be like that all the time. If you need to feel bad for yourself a little, then you should do that. It’s an important part of the healing process. I was in a rut for so long because I tried so hard to brush it off. I wanted to keep going at a regular pace and ignore the need to acknowledge my sadness over the loss of my abilities.
It’s funny to me that I write a column now. I used to read columns and think that the people behind them were so wise and put together. Heck, during the last several months, it’s been hard for me to write because I felt so uninspired by myself and my life. I didn’t think I had anything worthwhile to share, and I was struggling.
The feedback on my writing was always raving about my positivity, and I thought that came from being happy. I took some time to acknowledge my sadness. It made me realize that I can’t be the only one going through this. I can’t be the only one who took pride in being productive and ambitious and then had a hard time when that was taken away from me. Instead, I can share the struggles of living with a progressive disease while still encouraging growth. So, yes, I feel bad for myself, but that doesn’t take away the pride I feel because of what I have accomplished.
Now that I have acknowledged my sadness, I am beginning to move past my inabilities and focus on my abilities. Although feeling sad is not fun, it’s an important lesson I have had to learn while living with a progressive disease. We all handle our emotions differently. If you are like me and have a difficult time allowing yourself to feel bad about the limitations CF has presented you with, remember this: Just because you take a little time to feel bad for yourself doesn’t mean you will feel like that forever. In fact, it will probably let you heal and move past it faster.
Note: If you are struggling and are more than just a little down or feel like you would benefit from speaking to a professional, please seek out that help. I, personally, spoke with my social worker and found it both incredibly helpful and comforting.
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