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Help… I’m Scared of Change (and Humans)
I spent most of the week yammering on about COVID and vaccine worries, and I figured I’d round out the week with the same. I keep finding new hurdles and issues as we evolve through my first pandemic, and I’m not sure how to handle them.
My schedule has changed a LOT in the last couple of weeks. It went from most of my work being online – writing and digital ASL classes– to also adding in dance again. My teaching is still online right now because (in addition to wanting to role-model safe behavior as much as possible), I also can’t teach in person unless everyone has clear masks.)
I am surprised at how difficult the adjustment has been. For most of the pandemic, I was dancing/exercising in the morning and getting my work done early, so I could rest my body by late evening. Now it’s completely reversed and gone back to my old “dance teacher life” (which is always after school hours). Today, for example, I won’t be done until 10 PM, even though my body wants to quit everyday by 7 PM. And, somehow, it has been incredibly hard to adjust? Who even am I?
I know I can do it and I need to be patient with myself… but I feel frustrated with how much less adaptive I feel on the other side of this pandemic, and how much more fearful of change and new situations.
Does anyone else feel like the pandemic- or even long periods of sickness and being stuck “at home”- has made them more adverse to change?
Have you become more of an introvert than you used to be, or less keen on large social groups?
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